Don’t even know why I wanna put those emails here. Maybe coz I know the blog won’t be as short memory as I am. And at least for about a month, this is something remarkable.

Couldn’t tell how much it hurt when I knew the truth, always, the sweeter all the memories are, the bitterer to face the ending scenery. However, I guess if I didn’t dig into the wound and pull the thorns out; the wound would never be healed.

I love the lyric of this very old song --我为什么那么爱你. Well, it fits or might exaggerate what had happened, nevertheless, I’m alright now. Just babbling... This is the story to be written down only for not recalling any longer.  

-----Original Message-----

From: R

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 4:00 PM

To: 'Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT'

Subject: RE: Hi

But I have to tell you, I AM crazy about you, I love talking to you, holding you, playing with you, letting you win at Rummy,

I love how YOU take care of me, am sensitive and loving, smart, witty, a GREAT learner, someone who looks to improve themselves.

And I think it would be really easy to always take care of you, to help you and me grow and to grow in our relationship.

And, I think about you all the time, more every day.

So now what?

:)

-----Original Message-----

From: R

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 3:42 PM

To: 'Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT'

Subject: RE: Hi

It's just about over, leaving in a minute...

OK, if you'd like, I can make it really easy on you, I can make you dislike me or be mad at me or I can act like I'm not crazy about you...

:)

-----Original Message-----

From: Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT [mailto:EBai@applied.com]

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 3:31 PM

To: r

Subject: RE: Hi

How's your meeting going?

Don't make it hard for me...

You know that I want to see you, but I am just trying to focus on thinking and listening, and you are so distracting to me...

-----Original Message-----                                                                       

From: R

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 1:36 PM

To: 'Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT'

Subject: RE: Hi

  Or tonight :)

-----Original Message-----

From: Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT [mailto:EBai@applied.com]

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 1:34 PM

To: r

Subject: RE: Hi

I had salad for lunch too...: )

Well, I still get half of the cantaloupe left there

I should have brought it over last night. Then you can eat it

-----Original Message-----                                                                       

From: R

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 1:32 PM

To: 'Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT'

Subject: RE: Hi

I was joking :)

Just the salad.  Wish it was cantaloupe and nuts instead :)

-----Original Message-----

From: Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT [mailto:EBai@applied.com]

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 1:29 PM

To: r

Subject: RE: Hi

....

I should not buy you chocolate....

I feel guilty now...

Don't eat it for lunch..........

-----Original Message-----                                                                       

From: R

Sent: Thursday, September 06, 2007 1:26 PM

To: 'Evelyn Bai/AppliedIT'

Subject: RE: Hi

Thanks, stopped at Malley's for chocolate covered Oreo cookies...  Then a salad at Panera bread.

It's OK about tonight.  Let me know if you change your mind.

我为什么那么爱你

看日落
往大海里沉没
一动不动
到烟头烫了你的手
不要说什么都别刺破
就算结束
努力温暖到最后

我想静静离开
你却从背后
拉住我的手
你并没有用力
怎么我那么痛

我多想说没有关系
我还爱你
却挤不出一丝力气

是我错过什么记忆
才从幸福跳到这里

最怕自己从今以后
什么都不相信
当初多勇敢爱了你
多勇敢才能原谅你

我为什么那么爱你
爱到什么都说可以
发誓绝不做的事情
现在做的不想放弃

爱情到底让人脆弱
还是让人坚定
我用尽最后的力气
从头到尾都没有哭泣

爱曾是
我盲目的理由
你犯的错
除了我别人都看透
暮色中
心特别的寂寞
眼眶的泪
该为你还是为我流